Steely
Active Member
I am so bloody sad.
I mean - I just feel like I cannot take any more dysfunctional crazy making. Period. Not in my personal life, not in my work life. Perhaps that is too much to ask in this day and age?
I mean I had an abusive father. One I have resolved issues for the most part with, however, it does not take away the past.
I had 2 abusive X's.
I have an abusive difficult child.
I am done. DONE.
I purposely sought out this career with THIS particular company because they have been rated on the top 100 list of best places to work over and over again. I chose them because I wanted integrity, respect, and honesty to be ingrained in the fabric of their values. I wanted to feel like I could spread my wings in an environment that would respect me, and everyone around me.
HOWEVER.
No one in mgmt has a backbone to step up and reprimand the people who are disrespectful. And now, I find out that I have been manipulated and lied to, for other mgmt team members gain. And I have been lied about for months by an employee that wants my job. And the manager that leads it all, is a passive boob, who will not put his foot down.
I know it is all too complicated to even put into words, let alone understand via the board. I guess, suffice it to say, that the success of my future career has been called into question because of these lies - and I have no way to prove my integrity - and that sends me into a complete tailspin. I just cannot seem to cope when I feel like a victim. I completely cannot function. I become apathetic, depressed, angry.........maybe I am damaged? Or maybe I just need to lighten up, and get over myself? I cannot decide.
I mean - I just feel like I cannot take any more dysfunctional crazy making. Period. Not in my personal life, not in my work life. Perhaps that is too much to ask in this day and age?
I mean I had an abusive father. One I have resolved issues for the most part with, however, it does not take away the past.
I had 2 abusive X's.
I have an abusive difficult child.
I am done. DONE.
I purposely sought out this career with THIS particular company because they have been rated on the top 100 list of best places to work over and over again. I chose them because I wanted integrity, respect, and honesty to be ingrained in the fabric of their values. I wanted to feel like I could spread my wings in an environment that would respect me, and everyone around me.
HOWEVER.
No one in mgmt has a backbone to step up and reprimand the people who are disrespectful. And now, I find out that I have been manipulated and lied to, for other mgmt team members gain. And I have been lied about for months by an employee that wants my job. And the manager that leads it all, is a passive boob, who will not put his foot down.
I know it is all too complicated to even put into words, let alone understand via the board. I guess, suffice it to say, that the success of my future career has been called into question because of these lies - and I have no way to prove my integrity - and that sends me into a complete tailspin. I just cannot seem to cope when I feel like a victim. I completely cannot function. I become apathetic, depressed, angry.........maybe I am damaged? Or maybe I just need to lighten up, and get over myself? I cannot decide.