I'm back here for support. We went thru a lot of bad times in 2017, but he finally ended up coming back and got a job busing tables last July, bought a couple of cars (the first one got totalled not his fault), and finished two college classes in this past spring semester and got an A and a B. It wasn't perfect he's had many emotional outbursts but nothing major. He did go from meth weight(140) to over 200 pounds very rapidly. And he's short. He refused counseling or evening drug program. He was taking a summer school class and almost dropped it but I had to talk him off the ledge a couple of weeks ago. He is highly intelligent, but it's a demanding class and I have been helping him by making sure he is aware of due dates and checking grades and things I shouldn't have to do. It just feels artificial. I think he's starting doing meth or benzos again because of his behavior. Then this past Thursday he quit his job. We understand it was a crappy job, but there was no plan to get another one and yesterday when we tried to approach him about his car payment (yes that we cosigned on, very stupid idea), he flipped out. He threatened to kill my husband. He was just trying to find out the plan and was even going to suggest if he went to school full time we would pay. He started pushing my husband and butting heads and my husband slapped him away. I hate that that happened. But Difficult Child continued to detail how he was going to kill him, using three different methods. So we kicked him out. That was easier said than done. He sat behind the park and blew up my phone until a friend picked him up. Then they came round and my daughter and her boyfriend took him his stuff. Now he is calling and texting me asking about his car and about class tonight. I am blocking all the numbers he has contacted me from. My husband is staying home from work today and going to get an order of protection against him. I think this time he really is afraid for his life. It is just so hard. I am working from home today fighting off another Urinary Tract Infection (UTI). I work in IT and had to work from home yesterday during all this. I feel like I'm drowning. I have to fight just wanting everything to go back to normal. Thank you for listening, any advice or support is welcome.