and I'm not sure if I should post here since difficult child turned 19 or not but here goes. Well difficult child is TOTALLY strung out on heroin. I can't do no more for him. So much has happened since I've posted last. Are you ready for it all? 1. He stole $50 from my mom and a change jar she had 2. He stole easy child 1's beach money he'd been saving while we were in our back yard.(we didn't know he was here because he snuck in the front door) 3. The cops have been here and my mom's looking for him because "someone" said he was in on a theft. 4. Now the cops want him to snitch on the local heroin dealers and want to pay him for it. (WHAT THE....?) I haven't really talked to him since the day he took easy child 1 money. He doesn't text anymore either. I did run into him about a week or so ago when I was coming from the store though. He looks like a pure drug addict. Cheeks sunken in, skinnier than I have ever seen him, facial hair, hair is long and and knotty. Just down right horrible. I asked him how he was but I already knew, sick cuz he needed drugs. He responded like this was my fault still. He said why do you care you kicked me out? I told him he took easy child 1 money and that was wrong. I asked him if he was ready for treatment of course he said no. He was fine and didn't want anything to do with any of us, we don't care about about him. I told him we do care and we always will and I am sorry he feels that way. And I drove away. I am ok as long as I don't see him. When I see him it really makes me wonder is it my fault. What can I do? Is there someone I can call? Will he be alive tomorrow? All of these things go thru my mind and I don't know what to do. I get so depressed about all this. How long can he go on like this? We are not the best family but we never had drugs or alcohol around here to even expose him to any of this. We both work, pay our bills and don't go out except to the store or someplace like that. He was such a happy kid at one time. I don't know where it all turned to this.