So where I left off: I got the Zyprexa as a rescue medication to help get through this intense increase in aggression and panic Q seems to be going through. Day 1: By the end of the day he was asking his incessant, but normal, questions about the world, things he has done, just trying to connect and play with his stuff. Had moments of upset, no hurting me though. He went to bed nicely. Day 2: Refused medications in morning, got really feisty again, I just left the house and he followed I got him to take all medications and we went to a park and walked around. He did really well. Had a meltdown at home but no physical aggression, Went to PT and did GREAT even when transitioning from me and then transitioning to the Integrated Listening Systems (ILS) worker. She said she got a nice hug from him and the whole time they were together he was cooperative and never got upset and anxious. That has not happened for months (he does great but she said it was just very different)...he came home and I let him ride his scooter a couple of times and he came right in. Day 3 (today): He took his medications right away. We went out to eat (a chance for us to have fun, it has been SOOO long) and then when we came back he dropped his radio he had and started yelling at me (same old story, any upset or scare and it is addressed at me... I am a B and tons of demands and swearing) BUT no aggression. He figured out it was not broken and as his panic subsided, he just calmed.....handled the whole day well (no outside, I just kept low because we had horseback riding) and we left at 3:30 for riding. He got a little mouthy but NOTHING like the past months of transitioning there. Once we arrived he got out of the car nicely, no kicking the car no swearing nothing! He ran up to the volunteers (one guy had not been there since summer) and he hugged all of them, he was alone and they lavished him with attention. He was in heaven. He rode himself for the first time since last summer and did not swear at me ONCE...the closest the came to being inappropriate was to say "dont look at me mom" (always bosses me...what I can say, where I can look, what I can do, etc..when he is nervous). He rode two horses and asked if he could help brush them out after and he stuck with it....really did well. On the way home asked if he could ride his scooter and I said YES! He has been riding since about 5:30 on and off, and has used kind words to me and anyone he has seen outside. He has said please and thank you for everything all day when people have helped him (waitress, store clerk etc.). I told him we are not ready for just being outside and hanging around to see if kids come and go....only a half hour more....he said OK! And said I will tell you when I go out and we can try to make it longer tomorrow when I keep doing a good job, right mom? UMMMM I really dont want to think this could be it because it seems things can go so wrong. I at least am grateful for a few days of no serious issues though. THIS I can handle.