So this morning my coworker/supervisor pulled me aside and told me some students were making fun of me. Apparently when I stood up my shirt went up a little and they were making rude comments. Then my supervisor told me that I need to to watch what I wear because all my tops show off my fat. Since gaining 50 pounds from being on Remeron, I have been very self consious about my weight. I used to be a size four a year ago but now I'm plus sized and this is the heaviest I have ever been in my life. I am constantly having to pull my shirts down because they keep riding up on me because of my weight. So I get what my supervisor is saying. But I honestly can't believe she used the word "fat." I am very hurt and upset by it. I don't mind the students comments as much because they are teenagers and it's to be expected. But my coworker is old enough to know better. I thought it was common sense to most people not to use the word fat to someone's face. Apparently she doesn't have common sense. So now I got a wake up call. I attempted to go to Weight Watchers several months ago but I only went to one meeting. I couldn't afford to go back. Since then I have been eating terribly and I gained even more weight. When I went to my Weight Watcher's meeting I found out I gained 40 pounds. I have since gained more weight. I don't know how much because I don't have a scale. But I went up two jean sizes and I am now plus sized. I only have one pair of jeans that fit me now, so I have to keep washing them and wearing them over and over again. I am guessing I have gained a total of 60 pounds within the last year. While I was on Remeron I was hungry all the time and I ate massive amounts of food. Since stopping Remeron a few months ago I got in the habit of eating so much and I continued to eat a lot of bad food and big quantities. I am ashamed of myself for letting myself get this big. If I don't do something about it now, it will only get worse. So my mom has offered to pay for difficult child and I to go to Weight Watchers. I am going to take her up on it. I was going to wait till a weekend where I would have difficult child home with me so we could go together. But now I feel it's urgent to start now. So I am going to my first meeting tomorrow and then I will sign difficult child up later. That fat comment really got to me and now I'm determined to do something about it.