Well, I haven't been able to post much this week due to a lot of stuff going on. What has happened is I received a call from my daughter, the one who in June was homeless and managed with some help to get a job and an apartment in Mo., living near her younger daughter. Over the course of the last 6 mo., she has struggled and on Monday I was told that she had checked herself into a mental ward of a St. Louis hospital due to wanting to hurt herself. She has attempted suicide in the past and was lucky to not have succeeded. She has suffered from long term anxiety and depression. Over the last few months all her stuff has been at my house, in box's. Lately she has asked me to retrieve a title to her vehicle and her birth certificate and in the process of trying to find it to send to her, I ran across some poetry she wrote (when I don't know) but it is very dark, speaking of her ugliness and the beauty she wants but feels hopeless to have. As a parent I am worried but I know I can do nothing to cure this. I worry that she will lose the small job at a grocery store she has and that she could lose the apartment too. This worry seems to never end and it never gets better. She is not asking me to do anything other than send papers to her occasionally, but of course most parents want to make things better but I don't know of a thing I can do. I got a panic attack last night thinking of how short my own life span is at this time (I am 66). I could have 20 years give or take and at this time her problems just seem to be so big and she is 46 so when will she ever get over this? And how will she manage? I am taking a hands off stance, while telling her I love her and am sure she will find the right help and things will get better. That is all I know to do. Meanwhile I am, like so many here, suffering too!!