My son just keeps making one bad decision after the other. I still feel there is a deep sadness in him but so much rebellion and self destruction. When does the Mom guilt stop....get easier...the would of should of could of....all the things I would have done different. Why can't I save him or reach him? I keep praying this is a phase ...never have I felt so empty...helpless and sad. And it comes in waves some days....like a Tsunami .I miss the child I once knew. Why didn't I raise him with more confidence? So sad today.