I work really hard to forgive myself. There is so much shame to overcome, so much self hatred. I feel very sad to think it, to know that about myself. I wish now to be free of, to invalidate, those old, toxic judgments. I want to clear it; to free whatever it is that has been wrapped around me for so long.
There have been two times when I was able to forgive someone else. I didn't know that was what I was working toward, though it had always been my intention to forgive.
When it happened, both times...I cannot describe what it was to let go, the lightness of being that resulted. I don't have the words.