My difficult child is gone again. I had suspected he was using again and sure enough, the sober living house popped a random drug test on him. He failed for Benzo's, Amphetamines, and THC. He was asked to leave and he took off. I have no clue where he is and he's not speaking to me. He blocked us on his social media and doesnt respond to calls or texts. He admitted earlier in the wk he hadnt been keeping up with his medications. Thats sure to scew him up in the head, hes on so much. He has no job, no money, he didn't even take his clothes when he ran!! My heart is heavy, but I'm emotionless. I haven't cried a single tear this time (and I typically cry at everything!) i don't know if I'm still in shock or what? I have lost all sense of hope.