So he's gone again. He got pulled over while smoking some pot and had a mandatory court appearance scheduled. He stopped by the house to pick up the notice of arraignment and was once again teary eyed and so scared and so very, very sorry for it all... husband had arranged for a lawyer friend to represent him, and friend got him a reasonable deal -- a few weekly drug tests and a small fine he could easily afford. Difficult Child agreed to the deal. That's the last anyone has seen or heard of him. His phone has been disconnected for awhile,but he hasn't been on FB since the day of the hearing. He told his attorney he was going hiking in GA. He told husband he was going to CO. He told me he was going to LA. So he probably intended to skip out all along. I accept that this is what it is, that this is WHO he is, at least right now. And I honestly don't even WANT to talk to him. He only shows up when he wants something and we just end up feeling worse. But really? Just disappear without a word? husband says his gut feeling is we won't EVER hear from him again. Period. I said, "You think that's IT? Just..gone? For good? Just like that?" "Yep, just gone, just like that. That's what I think." I was reading HLM's post about birthdays and memories and thinking back on all the good times we had as a family, all the times we supported his interests, all the times we believed him and backed him up when no one else would...and he just takes off without any consideration? It's just so hard to fathom sometimes.