New court date the end of February! This is so frustrating as I feel like my life is on hold. Lawyer told my son if he used the time constructively and improved himself then she would be able to provide a better case for a shorter sentence, so far he has done nothing. This past weekend he has been in a foul mood. He came out with us for my daughters birthday on Friday, wore tatty old clothes despite having new ones for Christmas and didn’t speak at all during the whole meal. I just don’t understand why he came to behave like that. I have that awful panicky feeling in the pit of my stomach that he is ramping up to something. He’s been out a lot this week and I’m fairly certain it’s drugs, despite being on a detox programme. I warned him after court I could not take anymore but I really don’t know what to do. Tonight I hear a big smash and when I go into his room I see there is a smashed candle, he is sleeping on the floor and there is rubbish everywhere. His mood is dark. I’m scared he will do something stupid to himself or create another load of drama of which I really do not feel able to deal with. Give me strength!