Californiablonde
Well-Known Member
I have a jar of nuts, a small bag of croutons for when I make my salads for lunch, herbal tea, and a box of granola bars on my desk at work. Last week, a coworker came by, looked at my desk, pointed at me and laughed, and told my supervisor, "Haha she has food on her desk" I know what she was really thinking. "Look at the fat girl and all her food." I am sure my supervisor thinks the same thing. Remember, she called me fat last year and made me cry, and didn't even apologize for it.
Anyway, today my supervisor tells me some "anonymous" person complained about my food so I have to hide it. Granted, food on a desk may look a little unprofessional, so I agreed and put it all in one of the empty drawers. Still, I feel like I am being laughed at and even discriminated against because I am so fat.
When I first started this job 11 years ago, I weighed 120 pounds. Seven years into the job, I suddenly gained over 70 pounds due to increased stress and anxiety. I went all the way up to 194. At only 5'2, that's a lot. I know what all my coworkers are thinking. "How did she get so fat and how on earth could she let herself go like that?" It's embarrassing and I get so MAD at myself for allowing myself to gain all this weight.
So far, on my new low calorie, high lean protein diet, I have lost 9 pounds in 3 and a half weeks. That's a little encouraging, but I still have a long way to go. Meanwhile, I feel hurt that my weight is being made fun of. Even my grandmother can't stop talking about how much weight I've gained. I know she does it, because she has done it to my other family members who have gained weight, including my daughter, in the past. I feel so overwhelmed with all the weight I have to lose. And embarrassed as well. Can anybody else relate?
Anyway, today my supervisor tells me some "anonymous" person complained about my food so I have to hide it. Granted, food on a desk may look a little unprofessional, so I agreed and put it all in one of the empty drawers. Still, I feel like I am being laughed at and even discriminated against because I am so fat.
When I first started this job 11 years ago, I weighed 120 pounds. Seven years into the job, I suddenly gained over 70 pounds due to increased stress and anxiety. I went all the way up to 194. At only 5'2, that's a lot. I know what all my coworkers are thinking. "How did she get so fat and how on earth could she let herself go like that?" It's embarrassing and I get so MAD at myself for allowing myself to gain all this weight.
So far, on my new low calorie, high lean protein diet, I have lost 9 pounds in 3 and a half weeks. That's a little encouraging, but I still have a long way to go. Meanwhile, I feel hurt that my weight is being made fun of. Even my grandmother can't stop talking about how much weight I've gained. I know she does it, because she has done it to my other family members who have gained weight, including my daughter, in the past. I feel so overwhelmed with all the weight I have to lose. And embarrassed as well. Can anybody else relate?