My best friend, the heroine addict, called me on thurs to tell me she'd discovered some doctor that will prescribe some pill that blocks the "high", the craving, and much of the withdrawl symptoms from herione. I don't remember what it is called, but do know it's not methodone. It cost a ton, and insurance won't cover it. Her mother is shelling out the $$$ in a last ditch effort to save my friend. Friend told me she was to go 3 days without any medications at all. Then family was to bring her to doctor/clinic where they would begin the new medication and keep her a few days under observation. Then she's to go it alone with wonder drug keeping her drug free. I reminded her that she's taking enormous amts of heroine just to keep from withdrawling. She hasn't been able to get high off it in months and months. She told me she'd need me to keep her sanity while withdrawling this weekend. Then she told me she was at her other friend (one who got her hooked on this lovely drug) who's also an addicts house. So I let it run thru one ear and out the other while not telling her what she wanted to hear but the cold hard truth. She doesn't realize her mother and I've been talking about this stiuation alot lately. Then I thought, yeah right. So she did call me a couple of times. I didn't pick up. In fact she called me a couple of hours ago. But Nichole had just come in and told me she was all over some tall dude on her front porch. (Nichole has to pass her house on the way home) Most likely it was the dealer and her funds have been cut off as of thursday. So I didn't pick up. I didn't want to listen to the lies. I'm sick of the good intentions only when she's broke. She actually called me thursday night wanting to borrow money for her drugs. I told her not even when hell freezes over. Tomorrow when I see her mother.............well, I like her mother too much to lie to her. Or to have friend pretending to take miracle drug her mom is shelling out hundreds of dollars for with doctor and pills, while still shooting up. Her mom is barely scraping by herself. And I forgot to ask easy child about this miracle drug when I saw her today. I think it's a scam and friend's Mom is gonna be hurt. Yup. The drug has a hold on my friend. But the self destructive personality has an even stronger hold. So I feel mean.........but I just don't have the umph to deal with it anymore. She's not the person I knew. She's just a junkie living in the shell of the person I knew and cared for.