Steely
Active Member
So seriously...........I don't know what to think here.........other than there is some sort of world beyond what we know and understand at a human conscious level.
This is not the first time this has happened to me........but this is the most concrete.........undeniable episode.
My difficult child saw this counselor for 3 years, and she was amazing. She and I got pretty close, and she cared a great deal for difficult child, and me - and vice a versa.
We had lost touch over the last couple of years but about a year ago she ran into my parents at a hospital, where we found out she was sick - but she did not divulge any sort of details, etc.
So 2 weeks ago, I could not get her off of my mind. I mean, it was so intense that I left a voice mail at her office just letting her know I cared about her and missed her.
Then difficult child was moved to the psychiatric unit in Idaho, and while I was there I could not stop thinking about her. I kept telling my mom that I felt like Anita had died, and I was really upset about it.
Tonight I found out that she died, on 10/22 - the same night that I sat talking to my mom about how sure I was that Anita had died, and I did not know what to do.
Not only am I intensely sad that she died, and that I missed the memorial - but I am intensely freaked out by myself.
This same thing happened with my grandmother a year ago - I dreamed she died, the exact way she died, and the next day it happened.
And the same thing with my sister. I knew she was dead - even though it took them 2 weeks to find her body. I told everyone, but they did not believe me.
What does this mean? And what do I do with it? It scares me.
And............prayers to Anita, her family, and friends. She was young - too young to die. She left behind 2 children in their early twenties and a husband.
This is not the first time this has happened to me........but this is the most concrete.........undeniable episode.
My difficult child saw this counselor for 3 years, and she was amazing. She and I got pretty close, and she cared a great deal for difficult child, and me - and vice a versa.
We had lost touch over the last couple of years but about a year ago she ran into my parents at a hospital, where we found out she was sick - but she did not divulge any sort of details, etc.
So 2 weeks ago, I could not get her off of my mind. I mean, it was so intense that I left a voice mail at her office just letting her know I cared about her and missed her.
Then difficult child was moved to the psychiatric unit in Idaho, and while I was there I could not stop thinking about her. I kept telling my mom that I felt like Anita had died, and I was really upset about it.
Tonight I found out that she died, on 10/22 - the same night that I sat talking to my mom about how sure I was that Anita had died, and I did not know what to do.
Not only am I intensely sad that she died, and that I missed the memorial - but I am intensely freaked out by myself.
This same thing happened with my grandmother a year ago - I dreamed she died, the exact way she died, and the next day it happened.
And the same thing with my sister. I knew she was dead - even though it took them 2 weeks to find her body. I told everyone, but they did not believe me.
What does this mean? And what do I do with it? It scares me.
And............prayers to Anita, her family, and friends. She was young - too young to die. She left behind 2 children in their early twenties and a husband.