I know some of you are going thru worse issues than I am, however, I'm not coping well at the moment due to what's going on here. I cry all the time, and I have thoughts that just don't want to live anymore. We let my son take the car to find a job tonight and as he was leaving, I saw he was sullen. I asked him what was wrong and he said that he was 'tired of everyone telling him what to do and that he can't take it anymore'. I have thoughts some times that if something were to happen to my son, that I would be free of this stress and pain. What type of person am I to think that out loud? I can't function at work and everything is just now crashing down for me emotionally. I don't want to go talk to someone; I know the routine -- go to therapy, get medications to 'cope'. The problem is still here and will be, so coping just doesn't cut it for me anymore. Throw this emancipation on top of my son's issues and I'm done for this world.