My difficult child 1 is set to be released from jail in a couple of weeks. He has been calling regularly and sounding better than he has in a long time. Yesterday he called and said he was in the jail hospital. He had told me a couple of weeks ago that he had pink eye. Well now because the dr. didn't give him the needed medicine for over a week his eye is infected and he has a chance of "losing tissue". This was an eye that he had a corneal transplant in a couple of years ago due to a degenerative eye disease. They now have to give him eye drops every hour round the clock. He will be going to a halfway house upon release. I asked if he knew where he was going. He said no, they hadn't told him. He told me that it is a system on overload and the social services I imagined him getting are not there. Because of his relative demeanor I have a tendency to believe him. Because he is a difficult child I have a tendency to doubt. He does not expect to come here and husband and I will not ever entertain the notion because of our "keeping our home like a sanctuary" oath. Things were so bad for so long with difficult child 1 that I am experiencing anxiety attacks. So I am trying to stay in the present and I am praying that he heals. Because of this problem with his eye I know he will need to see his transplant specialist. This complicates things tremendously. He has no car. He doesn't know where he will be living. I have no information. I am all over the place emotionally. Stay in the present Tish and just react to what happens. Stay in the present Tish and just react to what happens. Stay in the present Tish and just react to what happens. I'm just plain scared of falling apart again and again.