LitlPixy
New Member
Wow, it's been a long time since I've been here. difficult child is now living at her dad's, three states away. I thought there would be relief of some sort. I guess there is in a way. I feel lost right now. SHE is what I did all day. If I wasn't actively dealing with her, then I was worrying about her.
The first day of school, I walked around the house all day, not sure what to do with myself. I've since replaced that with sleeping. I know, I know, I need to call my therapist. *sigh*
The few times I've talked or texted with difficult child, she was nasty with LOTS of attitude. I ended up in tears. I just want my little girl back.
This is bad, but I can't help but hope she's giving the ex what she's been giving me. Not very Christian-like, now is it? husband wants me to start cleaning her room out. I've tried explaining to him that I'm not at that point yet.
How do you stop the "what ifs" and "if onlies..." from crowding your thoughts? I have disected almost every year of her life.
Sad Sack aka LitlPixy
The first day of school, I walked around the house all day, not sure what to do with myself. I've since replaced that with sleeping. I know, I know, I need to call my therapist. *sigh*
The few times I've talked or texted with difficult child, she was nasty with LOTS of attitude. I ended up in tears. I just want my little girl back.
This is bad, but I can't help but hope she's giving the ex what she's been giving me. Not very Christian-like, now is it? husband wants me to start cleaning her room out. I've tried explaining to him that I'm not at that point yet.
How do you stop the "what ifs" and "if onlies..." from crowding your thoughts? I have disected almost every year of her life.
Sad Sack aka LitlPixy