i really have had it. i just called husband who i also wanna scream at for help. he's the only person that gets her as i do. today...... she played games with-breakfast, lunch, yet ate very slowly and didnt' complete. than at dinner she did a total shut down on me in the middle of the dining room. it was def. attention seeking ****. iv'e had it i really have. i have reached my breaking point. i'm at a loss across the page. she is one messed up kid and it kills me how hard i've tried for years to make her better yet she never gets better. so husband and i decided tmrw i take her for her mri in the a.m. and than straight to dtu unit. she'll curse me, kick and scream, god only knows because thats' what she did today when i told her i dont' think we should go back yet. i am not telling her im bringing her. i'll call them to drag her out of car if i have to. than we figured if we tell her you eat all your meals today without fighting we'll go home, if you do not than we stay. to judge whether or not this is behavioral. you just never know with her. if we wind up having to stay longer i'm going home alone i'll call pyscho ex up to fill in adn i'm heading back home for 3 days to get some sanity if possible there. it's unreal to me what she's put me thru for 8 mos. it's unreal to me how she's done this 2 other times starts to eat than after a week shuts down. says behavioral kinda weird junk like mom you aren't looking look i'm eating, i'm not eating. it truly is a mix of as the doctor's said all her other mental illness now compiled with this new one and her neediness of me. i'm freaking out someone calm me. im serious. i walked out of dining room jumped in car in rain to light up a cig. with her running behind me. and yes i took her with me. she's so mean to me i have to fight her to get up fight her to go to sleep fight thru the day with her. and than inbetween she's sweet as pie. i just wannna get far far away from her right now.