My difficult child was setenced to prison 5 yrs with 30 months suspended. I knew and he somewhat knew this was coming. He broke his probation. Even though I kind of expected this OMG it hurts like @@@@! He went off his medications several months back, I kept after him about it, but of course mom doesn't know anything. Now I feel if I would have pushed difficult child and probation officer harder about medications, he maybe would still be on track. PO also didn't help him with budgeting, they could have and should have gotten him into a program to help with that also. I know right now this is the best place for him, he is a danger to himself, he has been self-cutting, and now has several burns on his hand, BUt I just can't quit crying. My husband has been no support as he has just ignored everything lately with difficult child and he didn't come with to court. Please pray, I feel so alone, hurt and ashamed.