So tomorrow Im going back home for xmas. I should be happy and looking forward to it but instead Im mentally and emotionally shot already. My 26 yr old homeless son ended up back there about a yr ago and has made everyones life chaos since. His dad insisted on paying his way back to help him out (once again). That all went south pretty quick. dad is a piece of work himself and the rest is just as you can imagine. Fights,cops, jail time (both of them) the works. My son has had so many "fresh starts" compliments of family,friends and community programs but each time ruins it. Ive been stressing over this visit because how do I go see everyone plus him? My parents have long ago cut ties with him and my daughter wont let him come to her house either. I literally picture myself driving around to find him. He knows Im coming,he contacts me through messenger (he uses the library computers) and I told him, maybe shouldnt have but couldnt bring myself to not tell. It was always our thing to go out and eat when I visited and he asked if we could,I said yes. Im struggling with the vision of me taking him to eat, the emotions of seeing him homeless and then dropping him off somewhere out in the cold to sleep where ever and I go backto my parents warm home. Uggh!! and chances are my parents will give me the guilt trip for interrupting the time with them to go see him.If Ihad the money Id probably get a motel to stay in with him for the two nights Im there ut Idont have it.Im feeling so torn. Im from a pretty small town and there arent any shelters. A few places for daytime meals but no sleeping places. Im just dreading this and nobody to talk to. Has anyone had to deal with a situation like this? gratefulfor any encouragement.