My heart is so hurt.....My little angels social worker phoned yesterday urgently...havent had contact for 2 yrs!
She told me that my liitle sons bio dad commited suicide last week! They dont know what the reasons were.....
It's as if I can just not get myself to move forward! I knew him only a little, but know he and biomom got engaged after 6 yrs and were so happy for the first time ....
I look at my son and my heart brakes for him to one day not have the chance to meet him! He was such an amazing, handsome and clever young man! Things just never seemed to work out for them!
I am hurt for bio mom, for his family and agh just so sad that I will never have the priviledge to show him what an awsome, beautiful little boy he gave us!
It's like everything changed!
And it makes me scared because my little son is having so much problems already with sensory integration and Auditory Processing Disorders (APD).....I asked the social worker to PLEASE try and get some medical background......but she sounded very apathetic! We have a semi open adoption.....so no direct contact.....
She told me that my liitle sons bio dad commited suicide last week! They dont know what the reasons were.....
It's as if I can just not get myself to move forward! I knew him only a little, but know he and biomom got engaged after 6 yrs and were so happy for the first time ....
I look at my son and my heart brakes for him to one day not have the chance to meet him! He was such an amazing, handsome and clever young man! Things just never seemed to work out for them!
I am hurt for bio mom, for his family and agh just so sad that I will never have the priviledge to show him what an awsome, beautiful little boy he gave us!
It's like everything changed!
And it makes me scared because my little son is having so much problems already with sensory integration and Auditory Processing Disorders (APD).....I asked the social worker to PLEASE try and get some medical background......but she sounded very apathetic! We have a semi open adoption.....so no direct contact.....