I know this isn't about difficult child but my life, and I just needed to talk. Most of my posts do speak of the relationship of my husband and myself, our difficult child was his step son and we have 2 children together and I have another son with my ex husband the same as my difficult child. difficult child is living with his dad Well my husband is an acoholic, and I found out he's been stealing my Rx'd drugs, Ambien, and Xanax. Then I found out he got his own Rx for Xanax but has been taking WAY over the Rx'd dose. He's became mean and scary, so I went to family court yesterday and filed for custody of our 2 kids and restraining order. I offered to let him see the 2 girls with supervision of his mother 2 times a week until the court date but the judge said NOPE, he is a drug seeker/finder, and severe alcohol, ordered and evaluation. (not sure how that works) and he has no contact with me or the kids until the 20th (our date in court) He had to come get some clothes before I came home and leave, so I haven't seen or heard from him. My daughter #1 is scared, misses her daddy. And this is difficult, I have to say it felt wonderful to have a complete stranger agree with how I was feeling! Not just a family member or a friend, but someone who doesn't even know me, and they said Hey this is not okay, it's not okay for your kids and he is sick and needs help. I felt validated in a way. Anyways, I have to try and find a lawyer with this project that offers law assistance for low income people (no income here) This breaks my heart, a partof me feels bad for him too, that is the controlled insecure part I guess, Iknow he's crying for his little girl (although he has 2, he only seems to love the older one or something) anyways. I had to vent and let my feelings out this AM after crying all night. Another pea on my plate please.