Since I last posted in March difficult child had 2 more attempted suicides and has been hospitalized since the last. Medications have been changed and he is settling in nicely. In fact he is due to come home from the stepdown facility tomorrow and being a IOP program. At one point he was having 19 panic attacks a day but they were attributed to medication side effects. He tells me that the attacks are much less severe/frequent now and he has really worked on how to get through them. He has also been educated in BiPolar (BP) and how to recognize symptoms. He was in a "mixed episode" which was a new one for him but explains so much. Due to the fact that he used the ativan in a attempt he now takes neurontin for anxiety. Has anyone ever heard to this? I thought is was just a nerve pain medication. In any case I am actually looking forward to having him home...first time I've had such an extended break from him.