I only have a few minutes. As you all know difficult child made the sword threat on Wednesday. On Thursday, prior to even talking with the prinicpal, she stated "I have a knife in my bag" to all the other kids in front of her 1:1 and teacher. Before she did this, I spoke with the principal and he was really like "not too big of a deal, just want to talk with the girls and relay that this is not acceptable". (FYI, the only person difficult child could come up with that she "maybe" said this to was a boy--it was with a girl) during that day difficult child was very defiant and oppositional in class. At one point they were trying to get her to go to the resource room to try to get some work done. (She is there 2 hours each day for math and reading and enjoys it there.) difficult child became out of control. And saisd she was leaving and they couldn't stop her. She ran through the school to the front door. Her 1:1 aid had to block the doors. SW heard what was happening as her office is near the doors and she came out. It took her 40 minutes to get difficult child to calm down a bit--she reports very manic, and difficult child said to her "you can't fix this, no one can fix this". It was all snowballing. So I took her to the ER to be screened. around midnight, hospital psychiatrist advised she should be admitted to a psychiatric hospital. I asked if a partial hospital/day hospital would be possible because I think it would be traumatic for her to be fully hospitalized. He mad a bunch of calls and only found one for her age and though it was not appropriate (more for a deliquent kid than a mood disordered kid whose behaviors are linked to a medication change), and he wasn't even sure if my insurance would cover it. Knowing the agency it was through, I knew it wouldn't be covered. We went back to the room and was talking to Abbey about either we go home or you will stay at a hospital and mom will visit. difficult child said, I'll stay here, I said really, she said yes I think it will be good. So I agreed. They admitted her to the regular children's hospital until a bed could be found at a psychiatric hospital. 3am we got to the room, difficult child slept until 9:30 and she was transferred to a very close to home pshop at 5:30 last night. I was a wreck and she was already being oppositiaonl and defient when it was time for me to go home. I go back today. not so D-H, said when I was telling him what happened and how awful I feel about having to do it, he said well "I didn't do it" and that he wouldn't have done that, I jumped to that too soon. What a peice of work!!!!! I am leaving in a few to go to pshosp for meeting. Please send me strength--It's so hard not to cry in front of difficult child. I've been getting hysterical every moment I am alone and then have to pull myself back to gether when I am back with her. This is soooooo painful. She begged me not to leave last night--it was the worst moment of my entire life.