They will be here again!!!! I cant do this anymore... Im so out of ideas. appointment not until 2 weeks ... he throws himself into things and on the floor and blames us/his sis/the neighbors kids He tells us shutup.. if we tell him timeout for that he screams bloody murder SHUTUP!!!!! Refuses to get ready or finish something until the house is silent!!! If he hears us walk it makes him mad and he hasnt always been this way on the silence issue but I actually threw a lot of papers out that I wrote details when it was happening but because after that Pscy whatever said it was us I gave up at that point. I am starting to write it all down again but sooo much happens so fast I cant even think - cant sleep good- cant work cuz Id be fired for not showing up or showing up late all the time because of my sons issues. I cant remember much anymore... stress eater so not losing any weight. My thoughts on the future makes me believe that it will never change or that a magical fairyland with a happy ever after will just pop up. Everyone wants to win the lottery right? Well, As much as the lottery would help us and so I can help others..no. My lottery is to have a semi normal happy and healthy family. Why is this too much to ask for? No I dont want the kids with their dad but my dad and daughter is done. My daughter is starting to act up like him - I think its for attention. I know she hardly gets any because of all the focus on my son I have no nanny cam yet, just no money! I am going to talk to my grandfather again. My grandfather says my son is just rotten and wants to act this way. I don't know anymore.