When my son was little he was loving and always smiling. As he got older he still smiled but was not so loving. He began on medications at the age of 8 or 9. They worked for a while but they lost their effect. We went to couselors and doctors when I could find him and he would tell them what they wanted to hear and we'd move on. At the age of 14 he became violent and down right mean to me his dad and brothers. I was everything but a child of GOD. He put his hand thru a window (15 stiches) and I was told to contact CYS for more help. I did and we had an in home team for 6 to 7 months. In March (13) 2006 we went to court for his behavior which was now uncontrolable. He was placed in a bootcamp for 6 months, it tore me apart, I felt I have failed him as a mom a protector as a person who would do anything for their child. He did very well there we talked like never before we became close his brothers were there with all the support anyone could ask for. That was 6 months ago. This year on the same day (3/13/2007) we were back in front of the same judge with the issue of not attending school, curfew violation, and not attending in home couseling. He is now back in placement waiting to see what will happen next.
I feel I have failed, I feel that it is my fault and the guilt is killing me. I love him with all of my heart but it doesn't seem to be enough. If there is anyone out there with something to tell me please do. Thank Tracy
I feel I have failed, I feel that it is my fault and the guilt is killing me. I love him with all of my heart but it doesn't seem to be enough. If there is anyone out there with something to tell me please do. Thank Tracy