I go for my mental health evaluation/clinical interview tomorrow. MST guy is the one who sets it up and decides what info to send to the psychiatric doing it. You all know how well MST guy and I get along and how I have felt autommatically attacked and blamed by many in the courts building. MST guy was in the court that day a couple of years ago when I testified abut my past and therapy. When I talked with MST guy to set up my interview, he said they wanted release forms to talk to the military and get my entire service record. I told him that sounded a little extreme and asked specifically what he wanted. He wanted all menttal health records from them, plus any disciplinary action but they'd prefer to have the whole thing. Well, since they are going back 30 years but not asking about my school records and can obviously check about a civilian legal record themselves, does this sound more like they are just looking for "bad" things to pin against me? I mean, why asked for any discipline records but not ask for anything that would reflect something good- like discharge status? I don't trust them- as yoou all know- and think it could be an evaluation that ends up only documenting the worst instead of having it in context with "10 thatta girls; 1 messup". And seriously, if they are going back that far in time, why not ask for my school records to see if my family was correct that "I have been messed up all my life"? It seems that they are only looking at one side of things to me. I can't afford an attny but I wish I could. He got a little edgy when I told him that "talking to them" didn't exactly work so easily. And he thought I could just sign their standard release form to contact that particular branch of the military and that would be sufficient to do whatever he wanted and get whatever he wanted. I tried to politely say that they have long-standing policies and requirements of their own and I doubt they will change them. He asked if I minded if he called and asked them- I don't mind but he doesn't need a release form from me to asked the place that keeps the archived records about this. Well, he wanted to talk to them about my record. That makes no sense. These are people who run a warehouse of records- they weren't people who know about me. Noone I was in the military with or who gave me therapy would still be accessible. How would that help them do an evaluation to determine if I'm doing something that contributes to difficult child continuing to mess up? What it will show is that I got into trouble, went to treatment, successfully completed that, got out with great evaluations and a good discharge and recommendation, and never got into trouble again. Except for traffic tickets for a while longer, but I haven't even had that in about 9 years. If they are convinced that difficult child only has conduct disorder, I'm not understanding their train of thought. They already know that I don't have any kind of arrests like difficult child has had- not as an adult or juvenile. My guess is that all this is leading right back to a custody issue and they are really using this evaluation as a means to investigate whether or not I was telling the truth or my family was. After I eemailed my mom about difficult child being in detention again, she didn't contact me for several days even though I'd left a couple of phone messages. Then, remember how a few weeeks ago she was asking if difficult child and I would come there? After I emailed her yesterday and insinuated I might need to call police to do a safe-check on her, she called. We talked and I told her I was probably moving out of the house in 1-2 weeks and she said it was ok for us to come there- either with or without difficult child (if he gets recommitted). Then, today I get an email from her saying she's selling her house and has to keep it spotless and she doesn't have musch money so I might want to reconsider and wait until after she sells her house and moves to another state and gets settled in there, then difficult child and I could come and stay with her if we needed to. Maybe I'm paranoid, but if you can't trust your family, who can you trust?