My sons condition is making me physically sick. I am vomiting and shaking and do not know what else to do. My son started showing signs of mental illness at 23 years of age. I did everything i felt i should do. I called the police and told them he was bipolar and instead of taking him to the hospital they arrested him. I am now afraid to call for an ambulance because i dont want him going to jail. My son was in such a bad mental statenhe got in the car to back out and he didnt put the car in reverse and he hit my car and he got out of the car and just had a break down and couldnt stoo crying so i called for and ambulance and instead the police came. I made it very clear he had mental illness and it still did not help. I really dont know how to get him help if i am afraid he is going to get arreated. I finally got him into a mental facility and they kept him a week and got him on proper medications. I am now seeing him get worse again. I dont know how to have balance with him. I completely cut him off and will not allow him near the house but i feel terrible about it. I want to visit with mu son but unless he takes hid medications regularly i refuse to be around him. Am i being a bad mother?