Feeling strong today

Discussion in 'Substance Abuse' started by Nessie, Sep 20, 2017.

  1. Nessie

    Nessie Member

    As previously posted my 21 year old son is currently living with my parents whilst he awaits court and sentencing for controlled substances. He has mental health issues, has attempted and continues to threaten suicide. This last month has been a nightmare with his ups and downs and I am not even sure how I have survived the last five years.

    But here's the thing, I have. Today I feel strong, i do not know what is going to happen to him, I know from Facebook and other signs that something is going on - he is ramping it up! But today I can live happily with the knowledge that there is nothing I can do, I have tried everything. Tonight me and my husband have been out dolphin spotting and I felt free. It never ceases to amaze me how I have these days when I do not feel guilty for enjoying myself or that I should be at least spending all of my time worrying about him. I had him young, worked really hard , taught all my kids manners and morals, fed them, loved them and supported them. He chose his path and today I am not following.

    As much as I love him I hope I feel like this tomorrow and I hope all parents experiencing this chaos can feel like I do today. Love to all x
     
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  2. Sam3

    Sam3 Active Member

    I am glad you're at this place and grateful that you shared it.
     
  3. Littleboylost

    Littleboylost On the road unwanted to travel

    A well deserved beautiful day.
     
  4. RN0441

    RN0441 100% better than I was but not at 100% yet

    Nessie:

    How awesome that you took some of your life and happiness back for yourself today!

    We are so grateful for days like this.
     
  5. Lou lou

    Lou lou New Member

    Thank you very much for sharing. Everytime I read about someone being strong and doing something for themselves it helps me to try to do the same.