PatriotsGirl
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I wrote to difficult child this morning and then this afternoon a letter had come from her. I haven't heard from her since the calls when everything went down. The first thing I noticed was that the handwriting was the best I have seen from her (and I do know it was hers, though, lol). It was VERY neat. Her wording was a lot more mature and well, different. She said she understood completely about my not putting money on the phone account and thanked me for putting money on her food account. She let me know that she now weighs 184 pounds and her belly is hard as a rock. She says she is ready to give birth, ready for rehab and getting her life on track (can't say back on track as it has never been!). She says she is not comfortable giving Connor our last name, though. husband said if she does not give him our last name, he will go after them for child support. He feels VERY strongly about this. I told her that while WE are caring for and providing EVERYTHING for that baby, that he should have OUR last name. He cannot do a thing for that child - why should he have his last name??
Anyhow, the pre-detached me would have been thrilled reading this letter. It would have filled me with hope that she is finally "getting it".
Realistic, detached me thinks that was a nice letter, is thankful she was polite and hopes she really does want the help she is going to be getting. But I know I have nothing to do with whether she does or not. I have made the decision and have communicated to her that I will be her cheerleader and rock as long as she is trying and clean. But if she is using, I want her completely out of my life and as far away from us as possible. I have no control over her choices but I CAN control MY environment.
So, that is the only update I have....just waiting for baby now. The car seat is ready and the baby bag is packed by the door. He doesn't need any clothing until about 6 months. My friend has a son that is one year older than Connor and so she really loaded me up on so much stuff!! I have almost everything we need. I need more bottles and then formula, diapers, etc. I even have the legal paperwork to be filled out in a folder in the baby bag. Bought a Keurig for coffee knowing I am going to need LOTS of it at odd hours... oh and I bought a white noise machine on Ebay!! Brand new for ten bucks! Score!!
She is due in just a few more weeks. I am hoping he holds off until September actually arrives, though. husband and I are seeing John Pinnette at a comedy club this weekend and we are going camping next! He needs to stay in there and cook just a little bit longer....
Anyhow, the pre-detached me would have been thrilled reading this letter. It would have filled me with hope that she is finally "getting it".
Realistic, detached me thinks that was a nice letter, is thankful she was polite and hopes she really does want the help she is going to be getting. But I know I have nothing to do with whether she does or not. I have made the decision and have communicated to her that I will be her cheerleader and rock as long as she is trying and clean. But if she is using, I want her completely out of my life and as far away from us as possible. I have no control over her choices but I CAN control MY environment.
So, that is the only update I have....just waiting for baby now. The car seat is ready and the baby bag is packed by the door. He doesn't need any clothing until about 6 months. My friend has a son that is one year older than Connor and so she really loaded me up on so much stuff!! I have almost everything we need. I need more bottles and then formula, diapers, etc. I even have the legal paperwork to be filled out in a folder in the baby bag. Bought a Keurig for coffee knowing I am going to need LOTS of it at odd hours... oh and I bought a white noise machine on Ebay!! Brand new for ten bucks! Score!!
She is due in just a few more weeks. I am hoping he holds off until September actually arrives, though. husband and I are seeing John Pinnette at a comedy club this weekend and we are going camping next! He needs to stay in there and cook just a little bit longer....