Can hardly believe that it was around June of 2002 the first time I posted on the board. Both of my sons were at drug rehab then...it's been a long road for sure. And many here were of such great support to me, thank you still. Today, wow... Oldest difficult child will be 20 next Friday. He is still at drug rehab down near Houston. easy child, husband and I visited him weekend before last and he looks SO GOOD. Still the handsome son he always has been and sounding so positive about the future. husband is actually going to employ oldest difficult child again when he gets out of the half way house which he will be sent to sometime in August we think. Oldest difficult child plans on attending AA meetings where I attend Al Anon, the same building/group. Young difficult child meanwhile...well he is married now and joined the Army. His new wife is a sweetheart and also pregnant. Yes, I will be a grandmother, if all goes well, by mid Novemeber. I secretly hope it's a girl, smile...but just a healthy baby regardless. Young difficult child is away at Boot Camp in Ft Benning Ga. He will graduate on August 10th and easy child, my mom, young difficult child's wife and I will likely drive there while husband's fly's in. We are all looking forward to this event. I am so proud of young difficult child. He is sending money home for his wife, calling, writing letters and getting used to the routine. Yes, he will likely be deployed to Iraq at some point...probibly Novemeber it sounds like. I will worry about that then, not now. easy child...well, she makes mistakes every once in a great while but she's still a easy child and no sign of drug use. She just completed 9th grade. We will be going to El Paso next weekend for a national bowling tournament she qualified to be in and also easy child, my mom and I will be going to Vegas for another tournament late July. Oh and easy child, husband and I will go to Buffalo New York soon for another tournament as well. So you can see we'll be flying around the country bowling quite a bit this summer. husband and I are doing better these days. Spending lots of time with easy child and looking forward to the future. We still have plans to move back up to the mountains of Colorado again one of these days... Just wanted to check in and let you all know I'm still out here and the difficult child sons are still doing their best to figure it out and move forward. I am so hopeful for both of them and really can't wait until oldest difficult child is with us again. I look forward to the new baby as well...his mom, young difficult child's wife gave me a card thanking me for contributing to such a good son, etc. She and I will go maternity clothes shopping soon. I am doing my best to be a good mother in law to her and I think she will be a very nurturing mother. enough for now. Hugs and care to all my old friends and hope you all are enjoying the good where you can find it. Lovemysons PS...I try and keep up with you all by lurking in the various forums as often as I find the time.