I just took difficult child to his doctors appointment this morning. This is the one who prescribes his suboxone. He missed his last weeks appointment, just forgot the date and had to call after to reschedule. He has been taking less suboxone, on his own, trying to ween himself down a little, so he had enough left over to carry him for the week. This must have made her suspiscious that he missed the appointment and still had enough medications, so she drug tested him. As soon as I see him come out with the bottle and head towards the bathroom, my stomach gets in knots!!! It's like I'm just expecting my world to crash after I just posted his 8 month clean anniversary. She did the test in her office and it came back negative Guess it will take a long time before I can stop flashing back to when his tests never came back negative. It was the longest 15 minutes. During those 15 minutes I was already trying to figure out where he would live if it was positive?? Does the feeling ever go away??