Sorry I have been MIA for the past little while but I got hurt. I had been hurting worse since the car wreck but no one was paying attention much to me. I really have got to get some new doctors. Starting about 3 weeks or so ago I started having really bad numbness in my right leg where the entire outer side of the thigh would go completely numb. At that point I also started to feel like there was a tingling like sticking a live wire down what I can only imagine is a nerve running down the side of that leg because it started right around my hip and went down to my ankle area. This numbness has caused me to fall several times and the third time I really hurt myself. The first time was bad too but I could manage with just severe bruising to my butt. The third time I went down and hit all my limbs. I must have strong hips because I didnt break one...lol. I live on a concrete slab basically. I have bruises on both arms, my left leg has a couple of bruises but my right leg took the real brunt of it. This happened two weeks ago tomorrow and I am still in bad pain. My knee swelled up to at least twice its normal size if not bigger, my lower leg is swollen, shiny and has red and purple patches all over it. I also must have wrenched my back because I can barely stand up for any time at all any more. Basically I am a useless ball of extreme pain. My pain doctor's wont even look at my legs. I gave up on the chiro before this even happened because he wouldnt look at my knees which were hurting from the accident to start with. All he would do is heat and rub my upper back. Billy was with me the day I fell so badly two weeks ago and he has not come back by to see if I am okay. I am ticked off. Actually Tony and I are pretty much ticked off at everyone these days. I more than anyone to be honest. I realize Tony does go to work but I have been pretty much bed ridden for two weeks but he forced me to go do laundry one day this past week. He has either cooked a few times or brought food in but every single dish we own is dirty. He refuses to wash anything at all. I have to do that. I guarantee that should I end up in the hospital that everything would still be waiting for me when I got home. Actually I know it would, it happened in 08 when I was in the hospital for 2 and a half months! I cry pretty much constantly so I havent been any use to anyone else. I dont know how much longer I even want to be around. Tony thinks I am selfish. He doesnt have to live my life. I am in really bad pain, so bad that I can hardly take it, I dont feel like anything other than a maid. Only the oldest granddaughter even cares to come see me. One thing...my dog adores me. I cant go anywhere as long as she is alive because no one would take care of her the way I do. She is part pit so Tony and the boys think she should be an outside dog. Not me, I think she needs to have fence time during the day but she is attached to my hip. In fact, she is asleep right now cuddled up against me. Anyway, I need to get a doctor to order me some tests and some medical equipment. It would be extremely good if I could get orders to have a helper come in a few hours a day to just help me. I cant keep up with everything. Yeah, I havent gotten to the doctor yet. I have orders to go get xrays before I go back to my pain doctor but those arent because I fell, they are just updates for them. I need to find someone who will figure this out. I know it started with the accident because I never had this numbness and falling before. I havent settled with the insurance company...even for the vehicle...and they took the rental car away and we got our old truck out of the impound lot. It is actually drive-able except the drivers side is all pushed in and I am missing a light. Some Ahole at the impound lot stole a ton of stuff out of my car too! Including my tag and inspection. My dad had bolted a CB into the truck and we never took it out. They ripped it out. They must have thrown away a bunch of papers I had in the glove box because it was empty. That ticks me off because I had left all the old paperwork my dad had left in there. All the old registrations and inspections in his name where he had signed them. It was just a part of him in the truck. Oh well, just wanted to let you know what is going on. Im still valiantly trying to get this soap business off the ground because I have so much money tied up in it already. I somehow find a way to make at least 2 to 3 loaves of soap a week because I can mostly do that sitting down. I now have to get all my pictures taken to put up on the website I already bought and packaged to go sell. I probably have at least $400 of soap here to sell with more being made all the time. I have to spend so much money just to get all the stuff I need to get started but after I find out what sells it will go easier. I can just buy certain scents in larger bottles and I have finally found the places to buy ingredients cheaper than locally. One thing I really need Tony to make me is a soap cutter which is so easy its pathetic. Im not expecting one of the really nice ones, I just want one that looks like a miter box where an inch is marked off so I can slide the bars in and know exactly when I am cutting an inch and it will be a straight cut. Thats hard to do. I gave up on him building me molds and spent a small fortune buying them. Oh well...he gets to deal with my lack of money. Most likely I will just order the soap cutter too if I dont get it in the next week.