nvts
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I don't know why but it's driving me nuts. difficult child 1 is back in the hospital, difficult child 2 is acting like a creep and difficult child 3 wanted me to take her to a party while I went to see difficult child 1, BUT she pulled a disappearing act this morning and I couldn't find her for 1/2 hour (she's 8 years old and has been doing this all summer.). They're giving me lip about their chores, their rooms are a pigsty and I just can't deal with this **** anymore.
Why is this bugging me so much? I don't get it...
Everyone around here said that they'd "be here for me". I have become a family pariah. If I get one more lecture from my sister about how I should be treating AH, I'm going to scream. My Dad is on my back about smoking - I actually got snippy with HIM today - I guess I'm sick and tired of everyone having an opinion about how to run my life, my kids and my household without giving me a little space to just run through things.
I had AH on the phone the other night going off about how he "doesn't hate me". WTF? I told him he's a better person than I because right now I hate him. Plain and simple. Right now I hate him and it feels pretty good. Later on I'll pity him, but right now I hate him. I'm entitled to feel that way. I'm a better person than to hold on to the hate for any period of time, but be his friend? Not happening. I only befriend those whom I respect and I don't have an ounce of respect for him.
But I swear, if people don't stop criticizing EVERYTHING that I do or don't get done, I'm going to end up going ballistic on someone, I really will.
Thanks for letting me vent...
Beth
Why is this bugging me so much? I don't get it...
Everyone around here said that they'd "be here for me". I have become a family pariah. If I get one more lecture from my sister about how I should be treating AH, I'm going to scream. My Dad is on my back about smoking - I actually got snippy with HIM today - I guess I'm sick and tired of everyone having an opinion about how to run my life, my kids and my household without giving me a little space to just run through things.
I had AH on the phone the other night going off about how he "doesn't hate me". WTF? I told him he's a better person than I because right now I hate him. Plain and simple. Right now I hate him and it feels pretty good. Later on I'll pity him, but right now I hate him. I'm entitled to feel that way. I'm a better person than to hold on to the hate for any period of time, but be his friend? Not happening. I only befriend those whom I respect and I don't have an ounce of respect for him.
But I swear, if people don't stop criticizing EVERYTHING that I do or don't get done, I'm going to end up going ballistic on someone, I really will.
Thanks for letting me vent...
Beth