tessaturtle
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SOrry this will be so long. I had it a LONG time ago with-difficult child's emotional and verbal abuse, but as many of us here know, its not like you can just get up and walk away.
Earlier this month, SO and I had to meet with-difficult child's therapist for the start of her once monthly sessions with the parents of difficult child (bio mom in CT and difficult child is with-us full time). I was all for it because I am/was willing to do whatever to help difficult child. Well, my first reaction during the session and briefly after it, was "wow that felt like an abush on me!"
The therapist's theory of why difficult child treats me so horribly (now mind you, he is nasty and controlling to his mother, his sister, and our good friend's girlfriend when she was up visiting), is that difficult child sees me as the enforcer of rules. She asked us if besides the buying a new house (he had always lived in small apartments being shuttled back and forth), moving in with us full time, and then his mom moving so far away, was there anything else we could think of that was a change for him. WHen we answered no, she asked us if he to adjust to more rules in the house and how did we go about setting the rules. SO agreed with-me when I answered that any rule that may be in place at our house is agreed on by both of us (obviously, how could it work otherwise!) I also pointed out that some of the rules are new to them for many reasons such as they have never had their own true bedrooms to take care of before.
difficult child's therapist then asks if I enforce the rules more often then SO. I tried to explain I am the one to get them ready in the morning, I am the one who picks them up and then starts dinner at night, I am the one that is watching them on Saturdays when SO works, I am the one that is with-them all weekend during hunting season, so I guess that would mean that I enforce rules more often..because I HAVE to. THerapist then says, well, ok well nobody is right or wrong here, but maybe its just different styles. THen she tells SO that she remembers that he makes things games (such as racing to see who goes pee first). Thats all SO needed to jump on the bandwagon and say to the therapist "yeah and I don't pick on every little thing." Like I pick on every little thing! As you all know, our lives would be consumed if we did that with-our difficult children!! THis therapist obviously does not see SO when he is at the end of his rope (which is sometimes very short)(he believes in spanking - I don't, he yells, he swears) I love SO to death, but I was sitting there saying to myself "c'mon!!"
THerapist asked if we were at least consistant, I tried to point out that sometimes he is stricter than I think he needs to be and that He sometimes thinks I am stricter than he is. THerapist tells SO that difficult child needs strict limits (this was in response to SO saying he does not pick on everything) but the message needs to be consistent between the 2 of us. I don't think SO got it (and I know he didn't because I talked to him about that suggestion later), because then SO (who is on a roll now) says, the other day difficult child asked him for something and so SO asked him why he didn't ask me for it and apparently difficult child told him that I would say no. SO then says to therapist and me, that his friend (who comes up a few times in the summer and winter) says that i am stricter than he is. I have not told SO this but that same friend said to me that SO is one of the nicest dads he knows, but that (in his opinion) difficult child needs more discipline. I was incredibly hurt by SO throwing that out to difficult child's therapist, I didn't know how to react. THe way he said it, I know he wasn't saying it to be mean, but it did come across as he was excited to have someone to blame for difficult child's excessive disrespect and rudeness to people.
THis is just completely not fair. If I take therapists theory, then difficult child perceives me as the evil ruler. Could that possibly be because I am the only one with the kids the majority of the time. Am I supposed to just let him abuse his sister, not brush his teeth, not pick up his things, not get ready for school,etc.????? ALso, on reflection, this theory does not explain why he treats his sister so badly, his mom, and any other female (he listens to males more). I can honestly say that he hasn't learned that bx from his dad either, because SO is not a cruel person towards me or easy child at all (he opens doors, he helps out, etc). Of course we have disagreements, but they are normal, verbal, run of the mill (mostly they are brought about by difficult child) with us making up afterwards.
I just don't know how to handle this anymore, I love SO and easy child, but I can't even see the good in difficult child anymore. He has ripped away nearly all of my self worth, most of my happiness, and he has really torn me up with his spiteful looks he gives me; his outright disrespect; his words; and his actions. I used to run a Boys & Girls CLub and specialized in working with the really tough kids (he was one of them). BUt living with him is just too much.
ANy feedback, thoughts, suggestions would be most welcome!!!
THanks for listening
Earlier this month, SO and I had to meet with-difficult child's therapist for the start of her once monthly sessions with the parents of difficult child (bio mom in CT and difficult child is with-us full time). I was all for it because I am/was willing to do whatever to help difficult child. Well, my first reaction during the session and briefly after it, was "wow that felt like an abush on me!"
The therapist's theory of why difficult child treats me so horribly (now mind you, he is nasty and controlling to his mother, his sister, and our good friend's girlfriend when she was up visiting), is that difficult child sees me as the enforcer of rules. She asked us if besides the buying a new house (he had always lived in small apartments being shuttled back and forth), moving in with us full time, and then his mom moving so far away, was there anything else we could think of that was a change for him. WHen we answered no, she asked us if he to adjust to more rules in the house and how did we go about setting the rules. SO agreed with-me when I answered that any rule that may be in place at our house is agreed on by both of us (obviously, how could it work otherwise!) I also pointed out that some of the rules are new to them for many reasons such as they have never had their own true bedrooms to take care of before.
difficult child's therapist then asks if I enforce the rules more often then SO. I tried to explain I am the one to get them ready in the morning, I am the one who picks them up and then starts dinner at night, I am the one that is watching them on Saturdays when SO works, I am the one that is with-them all weekend during hunting season, so I guess that would mean that I enforce rules more often..because I HAVE to. THerapist then says, well, ok well nobody is right or wrong here, but maybe its just different styles. THen she tells SO that she remembers that he makes things games (such as racing to see who goes pee first). Thats all SO needed to jump on the bandwagon and say to the therapist "yeah and I don't pick on every little thing." Like I pick on every little thing! As you all know, our lives would be consumed if we did that with-our difficult children!! THis therapist obviously does not see SO when he is at the end of his rope (which is sometimes very short)(he believes in spanking - I don't, he yells, he swears) I love SO to death, but I was sitting there saying to myself "c'mon!!"
THerapist asked if we were at least consistant, I tried to point out that sometimes he is stricter than I think he needs to be and that He sometimes thinks I am stricter than he is. THerapist tells SO that difficult child needs strict limits (this was in response to SO saying he does not pick on everything) but the message needs to be consistent between the 2 of us. I don't think SO got it (and I know he didn't because I talked to him about that suggestion later), because then SO (who is on a roll now) says, the other day difficult child asked him for something and so SO asked him why he didn't ask me for it and apparently difficult child told him that I would say no. SO then says to therapist and me, that his friend (who comes up a few times in the summer and winter) says that i am stricter than he is. I have not told SO this but that same friend said to me that SO is one of the nicest dads he knows, but that (in his opinion) difficult child needs more discipline. I was incredibly hurt by SO throwing that out to difficult child's therapist, I didn't know how to react. THe way he said it, I know he wasn't saying it to be mean, but it did come across as he was excited to have someone to blame for difficult child's excessive disrespect and rudeness to people.
THis is just completely not fair. If I take therapists theory, then difficult child perceives me as the evil ruler. Could that possibly be because I am the only one with the kids the majority of the time. Am I supposed to just let him abuse his sister, not brush his teeth, not pick up his things, not get ready for school,etc.????? ALso, on reflection, this theory does not explain why he treats his sister so badly, his mom, and any other female (he listens to males more). I can honestly say that he hasn't learned that bx from his dad either, because SO is not a cruel person towards me or easy child at all (he opens doors, he helps out, etc). Of course we have disagreements, but they are normal, verbal, run of the mill (mostly they are brought about by difficult child) with us making up afterwards.
I just don't know how to handle this anymore, I love SO and easy child, but I can't even see the good in difficult child anymore. He has ripped away nearly all of my self worth, most of my happiness, and he has really torn me up with his spiteful looks he gives me; his outright disrespect; his words; and his actions. I used to run a Boys & Girls CLub and specialized in working with the really tough kids (he was one of them). BUt living with him is just too much.
ANy feedback, thoughts, suggestions would be most welcome!!!
THanks for listening