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bran155
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She called me last night and what a switch from the last few phone calls I got from her. The last two times she called she was nice, pleasant, not talking in the ghetto slang with the fake ghetto accent. She sounded stable and wanted to do the right thing. Well last nights phone call was totally different! She was back in her ghetto persona. Cursing and just being nasty. I knew right away how this phone call was going to go as soon as I picked up the phone. Instead of saying "Hi mommy" like she has been, she said "Whats good yo". Okay so now I brace myself as I know whats coming! I didn't let her bait me into an argument though. I asked her if she was going to turn herself in and she began her rant. I stayed calm, did not react. I asked her if she was high as she sounded, not really out of it, but very tired. She got mad and of course said no, she is sober. I really doubt that. So she was mad and told me "Get the f**K out of her with that bull sh*t, f**k you, bye" and hung up.
I felt so uneasy all night. Could not fall asleep and when I finally did at 5:30 this morning I had a horrible nightmare about her. I dreamed that I caught her prostituting. So today, I feel horrible. This is such a roller coaster. I am so sick of it all!!! Every time the phone rings my heart sinks and I get a nervous feeling all over. I am so afraid of whats to come. It's like waiting for a bomb to go off. You never know when it will blow, but you know its going to!!! I just want her to get caught already, this way I can have some peace knowing she is safe and contained in jail. How sad is that?
I hope everyone is having a better day than me!
Shawna
I felt so uneasy all night. Could not fall asleep and when I finally did at 5:30 this morning I had a horrible nightmare about her. I dreamed that I caught her prostituting. So today, I feel horrible. This is such a roller coaster. I am so sick of it all!!! Every time the phone rings my heart sinks and I get a nervous feeling all over. I am so afraid of whats to come. It's like waiting for a bomb to go off. You never know when it will blow, but you know its going to!!! I just want her to get caught already, this way I can have some peace knowing she is safe and contained in jail. How sad is that?
I hope everyone is having a better day than me!
Shawna