T
toughlovin
Guest
OK I know that my son is and has struggled with depression for a long time. Almost 2 years ago the night before his 18th birthday he overdosed on benedryl... looked like it was an attempt to get high. Two weeks later he overdosed on mucinex. Both times he was hospitalized for a few days. The 2nd time the hospital saw it as a possible suicide attempt. I was not sure. Then there were the threats on line a couple of weeks ago. I know he can use this in an very manipulative way. I have never felt he was really seriously suicidal but also know you can never be sure.Today we are cleanig out a bunch of stuff in his room. I am going through stuff... and I found a note from him written to "whom it may concern". It is very very sad and is a suicide note. It is not blaming at all but talking about the pain he is in and how nothing works. I am pretty sure this was probably written almost 2 years ago. So it is in the past but of course it hit me in the present and made mem so scared for him. I know at that time he was hurting bad from the break up.... but gosh it makes me so scared for him.Makes me more than ever want to go rescue him.... except I know that I can't. Not only is it not good for me to do it, it won't work. There really is nothing I can do... it really does have to come from him. I just wish so much he would come to us his parents and talk to us about his pain..... and ask us for help. He won't do that though. I am hoping like anything the new medications will help.....