difficult child is still living with a friend. I paid half their rent for May. difficult child to pay half utilities. He went back to college last week. A class in a four week summer term. Is working part time at a fast food restaurant. Gets around on a skateboard. he's more positive which I am grateful for. I bought him about $50 in groceries Friday. Was shocked he was willing to be seen at Walmart with me. Previously that was a no go. Made him some food yesterday. He thanked me in person and then wrote me a note on Facebook to say thanks. gratitude is a new concept for gig. i try not to think long term about him. Cleaned out his car to sell. Figured out I could sell his cellphone. I must move on and live my life. it's sad....very sad. I miscarried a baby who would be graduating from high school this month. I still mourn that child. I wonder....easy child or difficult child? You know what I mean? just feeling lonely tonight.