Sad, just sad

Discussion in 'Substance Abuse' started by AmericanGirl, May 4, 2013.

  1. AmericanGirl

    AmericanGirl Member

    difficult child is still living with a friend. I paid half their rent for May. difficult child to pay half utilities. He went back to college last week. A class in a four week summer term. Is working part time at a fast food restaurant. Gets around on a skateboard.

    he's more positive which I am grateful for. I bought him about $50 in groceries Friday. Was shocked he was willing to be seen at Walmart with me. Previously that was a no go. Made him some food yesterday. He thanked me in person and then wrote me a note on Facebook to say thanks.

    gratitude is a new concept for gig.

    i try not to think long term about him. Cleaned out his car to sell. Figured out I could sell his cellphone. I must move on and live my life.

    it's sad....very sad. I miscarried a baby who would be graduating from high school this month. I still mourn that child. I wonder....easy child or difficult child? You know what I mean?

    just feeling lonely tonight.
  2. PatriotsGirl

    PatriotsGirl Well-Known Member

    It is progress....(((hugs))) steps...
  3. InsaneCdn

    InsaneCdn Well-Known Member

    More hugs...
  4. recoveringenabler

    recoveringenabler Well-Known Member Staff Member

    Thinking of you..............sending gentle hugs..............
  5. FlowerGarden

    FlowerGarden Active Member

    Sounds like he is starting to change for the better. You are doing what he needs. Hugs to you.
  6. Nancy

    Nancy Well-Known Member Staff Member

    I'm sorry you are down today AG. As reality sets in there is a powerful sadness that come with the realization that he is chosing a path different from the one you envisioned.

    Sending comforting hugs.
  7. DDD

    DDD Well-Known Member

    Totally Ditto, Nancy. You truly have done an awesome job at parenting but I understand that progress is not the same thing as the anticipated life embedded in your heart. Hugs DDD
  8. buddy

    buddy New Member

    Double ditto the others.....
    You've been thru so much, I hope he is starting to mature a little.

    Just know you're being thought of....hugs
  9. Bunny

    Bunny Active Member

    Gratitude might be the small steps towards making better choices. I'm sorry that you're feeling so down right now.
  10. Jody

    Jody Active Member

    Many hugs. Hope you are feeling better.