I have written and deleted so many times the last few days. I guess it just feels better to write it down, then realize it isn't worth wasting everyone's time. Homework/me/difficult child don't mix. Today is very sad. I wrote Monday, Chloe, my almost 8 year old dog-my first ever dog, she tore her ACL on Monday. husband had to take her in. He was told surgery was between 1200 - 1400 to repair. Today I took her for a second opinion. What I was told was $1400 to repair. There is a 50% chance of her other ACL going out within 6 weeks of this injury. Regardless of whether or not surgery was done this is the risk. If we were to choose to leave her, we would just keep her comfortable on pain medications and try to keep her down and resting. If someone were to tell me this, I would tell them they are nuts...it's a dog. But now I find myself in that position. chloe is my baby. She has always been MY baby. We don't have the money to have her leg repaired. I told easy child. I also told him if her other one goes out, it would be immediately that we put her down. He said he would never forgive me if I didn't give him the chance to say good bye. What if he isn't here? husband has had 4 dogs in his life. Never put any down. Had to give two away due to moving. The other two he left. And to think when I met him he told me he liked dogs better than kids. I don't want Chloe to die alone. But I don't think I can be there. I don't think I can handle that. Heck - I can't handle this news. Then there is difficult child. What do I tell him. HOW do I tell him. Last night was a total full blown fight. Kitchen chair seems to be the object of choice these days. He said he HATES his life and I just don't understand. Thank you for listening.