My dear son is still on the lamb. He took off last week after he missed a court appearance and a bench warrant was issued. He called me later in the week and told me he was "going underground". He told me he had purchased a motorcycle, and he gave me the brand and model (?), and that he was in San Diego, a couple of hundred miles away. I had a funny feeling when he was telling me these things. It seemed scripted. Indeed, I found out yesterday through bank activity that he is still close to home. It won't be long until he's caught. I have a family member in the sheriffs dept who's pulling some strings. So here I sit waiting for the inevitable. Working hard to get on with my life. Working hard to stay positive. Working really hard not to go to that dark place. Here's my question: Should I accept the charges when I get that call from jail? Should I speak with him? It scares me to death just to think about it. He'll be facing some pretty harsh realities. No more private attorney, it's public defenders for him now. No more money, I won't give him a penny. And he'll be detoxing from meth. Of course I love him, but I won't be able to rescue him this time. He's gone to far. He's lied to me, disrespected me, bullied me... but he's still my son. I'm so torn. On one hand I want him to know that I will always love him, and I'm here to help if he makes better choices. On the other hand, I'm not sure if I have the strength to talk with him. I'm afraid it will set me back on any progress I have made letting go. Advice please!!