Abbey
Spork Queen
Coming clean. It's a hard thing to do because I respect you guys so much and don't want you to think worse of me.
Life has not been good for me in many years. I'm a master of the happy face. I've tried to get things on track with no success. First J, then my marriage. I didn't handle it well. I self medicated with alcohol. I wasn't a binge drinker...just enough to numb the pain.
Been to more therapists than you could imagine...depression medications, etc. Nothing seemed to make me happy. I knew the only thing I could do was leave the toxic environment I was in. It took me years and several attempts, but I finally did it.
In the meantime I had a horrible 24 hour period where I was a total difficult child. Landed me in jail two times within that time period. I've never experienced this in all my life.
I faced the DA and cried my heart out at my sentencing. They would not give except for me to have 60 days to turn myself in. I left my H the next day without out my laptop. Got it today so I can briefly steal someone's internet and get online.
So what faces me now is going back to WI with 6-9 months of jail. I'm scared as a donkey's ****. I'm leaving Vegas on Aug. 17, spending a few weeks with my daughter then a few days with my good friend in the same city I will be incarcerated. The deal with my daughter is that I'll do this, but you better have a ticket out of this state ASAP when my time is done. It's a very humbling experience.
No minutes on my cell for those of you who call, I just appreciate any prayers you can give. Hopefully I can get internet access in the next few weeks.
You guys are the best. I brought my spork collection to Vegas and they loved it.
Hopefully will keep in touch.
Abbey
Life has not been good for me in many years. I'm a master of the happy face. I've tried to get things on track with no success. First J, then my marriage. I didn't handle it well. I self medicated with alcohol. I wasn't a binge drinker...just enough to numb the pain.
Been to more therapists than you could imagine...depression medications, etc. Nothing seemed to make me happy. I knew the only thing I could do was leave the toxic environment I was in. It took me years and several attempts, but I finally did it.
In the meantime I had a horrible 24 hour period where I was a total difficult child. Landed me in jail two times within that time period. I've never experienced this in all my life.
I faced the DA and cried my heart out at my sentencing. They would not give except for me to have 60 days to turn myself in. I left my H the next day without out my laptop. Got it today so I can briefly steal someone's internet and get online.
So what faces me now is going back to WI with 6-9 months of jail. I'm scared as a donkey's ****. I'm leaving Vegas on Aug. 17, spending a few weeks with my daughter then a few days with my good friend in the same city I will be incarcerated. The deal with my daughter is that I'll do this, but you better have a ticket out of this state ASAP when my time is done. It's a very humbling experience.
No minutes on my cell for those of you who call, I just appreciate any prayers you can give. Hopefully I can get internet access in the next few weeks.
You guys are the best. I brought my spork collection to Vegas and they loved it.
Hopefully will keep in touch.
Abbey