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toughlovin
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Hi all,
Today has been a struggle for me. I havent heard from difficult child since he called on Tuesday saying he was defeaated... he never called me back for the number of my friends son. He did do one post on FB but nothing since. I am having a hard time not having any idea of where he is... and no cell phone to check the records of etc. It has kind of been driving me nuts today... which makes me feel pretty unmotivated. I don't want to be back in the place where I am obsessed with him, but a day at home relaxing is turning intto that somewhat.
I finally called the friend... who actually called yesterday when I wasn't home to see what was happening. Talking to him helped. His comment was that when he was that age (and older) once he found a source and a way to get high he did not call home.. He only called when he couldnt find anything and felt desperate. He commented that drug addicts are very resourceful!! It was just good to talk to him and to feel I have someone there in the area who knows what is what and who I can send my son to for help... and take me out of the loop of trying to figure things out. And really I think my son hasn't called because this time I didn't jump in and find him an answer... I did not rescue him.
So it is hard. But talking to my friend gives me hope... he was a heroin addict for 27 years, spent time in prison and has been through it all. Now he is sober, working and doing well. Hopefully it wont take as long for my difficult child to get it together but it does give me hope that it IS possible and I need that hope right now.
TL
Today has been a struggle for me. I havent heard from difficult child since he called on Tuesday saying he was defeaated... he never called me back for the number of my friends son. He did do one post on FB but nothing since. I am having a hard time not having any idea of where he is... and no cell phone to check the records of etc. It has kind of been driving me nuts today... which makes me feel pretty unmotivated. I don't want to be back in the place where I am obsessed with him, but a day at home relaxing is turning intto that somewhat.
I finally called the friend... who actually called yesterday when I wasn't home to see what was happening. Talking to him helped. His comment was that when he was that age (and older) once he found a source and a way to get high he did not call home.. He only called when he couldnt find anything and felt desperate. He commented that drug addicts are very resourceful!! It was just good to talk to him and to feel I have someone there in the area who knows what is what and who I can send my son to for help... and take me out of the loop of trying to figure things out. And really I think my son hasn't called because this time I didn't jump in and find him an answer... I did not rescue him.
So it is hard. But talking to my friend gives me hope... he was a heroin addict for 27 years, spent time in prison and has been through it all. Now he is sober, working and doing well. Hopefully it wont take as long for my difficult child to get it together but it does give me hope that it IS possible and I need that hope right now.
TL