Hi all, My son is 18 now. I am the same Otto Von Bismark who posted that my son was a pedophile a few years back (like there are a lot of Otto Von Bismarks running around this community). We have had no end of struggles, as most of you have also experienced. His conduct disorder has been changed to antisocial personality disorder (brain injury at birth likely culprit), though he also has autism, and an IQ of 80. Very little impulse control. Non-violent. Did not finish high school....we pulled from the public school (at their suggestion!) because they were unable to protect him and give him proper services. He finished 11th grade in May and I am trying to homeschool the last year of high school. Not going well. We have since had a disability rights organization take the case and they are going after the school, but that is another story. Friday afternoon, my son said he has been hearing voices telling him to do bad things. He was suicidal four weeks ago (we sought help but were told we must wait six weeks for psychiatrist!). He threatens suicide whenever we discover that he found another child pornography source that we shut off, so within 24 hours, he was no longer suicidal, and was laughing, talking about buying books in a series he likes to read, new cell phone models, movies he wants to see, etc. It's like a suicide light switch shuts off as soon as he realizes it won't get him anything. He is under constant supervision with in-home cameras, no electronic device access, no going out alone (pedophilia + low impulse control = much parental angst). I took a nap the other day and he sprinted to a Walgreens, bought a cell phone, came home and hooked it up to WiFi before I even woke up. I caught him the next night with it and took it away, now he is saying that the voices are telling him to get the phone and look it up, and the voices also told him to hurt his sister. We went to hospital for inpatient psychiatric the next day (yesterday) and they admitted him. He has history of severe reactions to medications...Zoloft makes him extremely manic (he thought he could fly if he jumped off a building) Abilify caused hallucinations. Intuniv made him a non-functioning zombie. My point: we need some medications. He is functioning worse and worse.They told us they would try two: Luvox and Risperdal. When he called today he told me they gave him Depakote instead. Now that he is 18, I am out of the loop with docs, too, it seems. I am now totally confused. I am also afraid of medications a bit, though I am not telling him this. We are pretty desperate. Our quality of life is getting worse as he gets older, and his QIL is horrible, if he is hearing voices. (Note: since he has sociopathic tendencies, he lies A LOT...about everything, so he may be hearing voices because he saw a movie where someone heard voices. We just can't tell.) Anyone want to chime on these medications for an 18-year-old brain? It's new territory for us. Thank you!