exhausted
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Don't know where to post this, but since you are the people who know me best... difficult child was suppose to work at 2:00 today. She stayed with her friend last night (one of the few friends we like). She texted her work and told them she was me and that she was sick and could not go to work, I was supposedly taking her to Instacare. Her boss called our house to confirm-she had a feeling I guess. I told her no I had not texted. I wanted so bad to tell the boss about difficult child-or at least some things, all I said is honesty is a big issue with her. The boss said we will work with her if she is honest-she is doing a good job here.
In the mean time difficult child texted me that she was sick. We went to get difficult child emediately. She looked horrible (a crazy horrible not a sick horrible)and didn't want to get in the car. She started blaming me for being a crazy. Said she didn't want to go to work because someone had called her "lazy fat b$%^&". She said she told her boss and the girl just got a slap on the hand. This girl has done this before according to difficult child. difficult child felt like justice was not served. This is a typical pattern. She can't get through these events in any normal way. We tried to tell her that this is life and she does not have to let this girl take her down. Tried to get her to use a DBT skill-she refused. Then the cyclical, irrational conversation began. It's like she flipped a switch. She doesn't care, she hopes she goes to jail on the court date, she hates everything, it stopped short of a suicide threat which is where it usually goes.
She then got on the phone and tried to get someone to talk to her. Noone home I guess. She is holed up in her room. She has that look in her eye. Next she will try to find someone to sexually act out with. She will sleep for a few hours, feel guilty and then try to find someone to have sex with. These episodes are almost psychotic.
Every weekend something happens. Maybe jail is the only thing that will scare her into treatment again. She will always suffer from Borderline (BPD)-today firmed this up for me. She needs to have help and I can't get her to go anymore.
In the mean time difficult child texted me that she was sick. We went to get difficult child emediately. She looked horrible (a crazy horrible not a sick horrible)and didn't want to get in the car. She started blaming me for being a crazy. Said she didn't want to go to work because someone had called her "lazy fat b$%^&". She said she told her boss and the girl just got a slap on the hand. This girl has done this before according to difficult child. difficult child felt like justice was not served. This is a typical pattern. She can't get through these events in any normal way. We tried to tell her that this is life and she does not have to let this girl take her down. Tried to get her to use a DBT skill-she refused. Then the cyclical, irrational conversation began. It's like she flipped a switch. She doesn't care, she hopes she goes to jail on the court date, she hates everything, it stopped short of a suicide threat which is where it usually goes.
She then got on the phone and tried to get someone to talk to her. Noone home I guess. She is holed up in her room. She has that look in her eye. Next she will try to find someone to sexually act out with. She will sleep for a few hours, feel guilty and then try to find someone to have sex with. These episodes are almost psychotic.
Every weekend something happens. Maybe jail is the only thing that will scare her into treatment again. She will always suffer from Borderline (BPD)-today firmed this up for me. She needs to have help and I can't get her to go anymore.