As some of you know, difficult child was arrested in Feb for violating probation the third time. Well, he is still in jail but two weeks ago, his lawyer got him a deal that will have him stay locked up until the 14th of July and then go to rehab for one month and if he finishes the program, they will terminate his probation. This is a very good deal if difficult child doesn't mess it up because he will come out it without a criminal record. So i keep hoping.... Meanwhile, i have been doing way better emotionally and have been able to focus on me for a change. Slowly by slowly, i am letting go and letting God. I don't stay up at night thinking about what i can do to help difficult child and i find myself thinking about him less often during the day. But i am still doing some enabling like putting some money in his account and accepting his calls, although the reason i decided to do that is for my peace of mind. I decided that helping him here and there and talking to him is my way of letting him know that i have not completely given up on him and i still pray and believe he can change. But then, mother's day comes along and seeing people on TV and elsewhere gushing about how great their mothers' are and how their lives were changed because of the great care the mothers gave is getting to me especially since i am a mother of only one(difficult child). However, i refuse to be sucked right back into the guilt pool because i know better. So, this mother's day, i just want to wish every mother on the board a happy and restive day tomorrow because we are "GOOD MOTHERS," regardless.