I called my ex husband yesterday to ask a question about my trip to Australia. After we discussed it, he said, "Well here's something that might influence your decision. difficult child told me that he spoke to his probation officer and she said he could transfer it from Colorado to Illinois. She called the Mission where he used to live and they said they would accept him back into their program. The girlfriend's mom has agreed to lend him the money for a train ride. So he will be back in Illinois at the end of the week". I'm absolutely horrified. The more I think about it, the less I believe it. I mean any of the arrangements that have been put into place. I think he just wants to take his chances and go into hiding. I can't take the pressure of him having this kind of access to me. I know it's cowardly but the 1,000 mile distance between us has been blissful. Yes, I can escape to Australia, but I can't stay there forever. I need a crash course in dealing with him again. Help.