Echolette
Well-Known Member
I've been posting on the general board, and I hope I'm not burning out my welcome, but I have another question...do any of you find you have nothing to say to your kid? In my case I run into him on the streets sometimes. Yestarday I saw him on the street begging. Today I was out running and I saw him. I stopped, we walked together briefly. He said he was going to meet his girlfriend in the park (he was heading out from the place under the bridge where he told me he sleeps). He smelled terrible from a few feet away. My dog was ecstatic to see him, so that was an icebreaker. I asked him how things went in the hospital the other night (he called me from an ER) and he said fine, they had lanced a boil...he asked how far I ran today...and then neither of us had anything to say. I was agitated, angry (I'm not even sure why) grossed out, scared for him, upset, and mad that my run was interrupted. I couldn't think of anything to say that wasn't going to turn into a confrontation. After a 1/2 a block he put his head phones on and said "bye, mommy, I love you" and I said "bye" and ran a different direction.
I am tired of making small talk with him, filling him on on family, and pretending it is normal to run into your street person son on the street. I am so mad at him (this is new) that I'm afraid I'll burst into a torrent of criticism. And now, at home, I want to cry.
Any idea on how to handle these run ins?
I am tired of making small talk with him, filling him on on family, and pretending it is normal to run into your street person son on the street. I am so mad at him (this is new) that I'm afraid I'll burst into a torrent of criticism. And now, at home, I want to cry.
Any idea on how to handle these run ins?