So thankful to have found this site. I chose not to visit my son this weekend. Most of the post read my mind and spoke from my heart as well. Three jails, five felonies in a span of three months. I am certain he will end up doing some time as each one carries 15-20. No bond at all due to missing court dates which set the situation up for worse conditions.. he is a herion addict who has a girl 3 months pregant. The best possible place for him right now is in jail. I cant express the mindset I have after so many overdoses and suicide attempts. He is mentally ill and self Medicates with any drug he can get his hands on. Right now is my time to breathe. Sleep with my phone off and not have massive anxiety attacks when I see his fathers number on my phone (we are divorced) its never good news when he calls. Last August I was two days home from having surgery and he OD'd I got the call and was unable to go to hospital, resolved that he was safe and where he needed to be. Nothing I could do. I have been traumatized by his addiction for 8 years, knew the outcome was jail or death. I opt for jail. I did contact his court appointed attornies to let them know his mental conditions and that he is an addict. At 25 its out of my hands. I need to find peace and breathe for now. If he comes home stays clean we can rebuild a relationship. For now I have to heal from too much trauma. I plan to visit when I feel the time is right after he is sentenced possibly. Much love an prayers to all of you.