I saw my difficult child for the first time today since he was admitted to inpatient over a week ago. He looked so different in just one week - full face with a rosy complextion and bright eyes. His counselor said he's doing great. He was hesitant to give me a hug but did so anyway. We went through his drug history and he was very honest. I know way more than I want to ever hear about drugs! The toughest part was hearing that he admitted to the psychologist that his dad was abusive to him - psychologically, physically and verbally. My ex used my difficult child and me as his scapegoat when his alcoholism progressed, and it was the reason I divorced him. This was the first time my difficult child described his dad's actions as abusive. I'm still so confused when I think about how the once gentle, loving man I married turned into an abusive addict, so I can't even imagine how my difficult child can handle it. I know I've done a lot of enabling due to my guilt about what my kids went through.
After our meeting I was told to stick around until my difficult child had dinner and that we could visit for awhile when he finished eating. When he came out of the cafeteria he told me to leave and that it was my fault he had to be at the stupid place. He refused to take the phone card I bought him - said he didn't want to talk to me anyway - and walked away.
The realization that there is no quick fix to the nightmare we've been living is really sinking in.
Hugs,
wantpeace
After our meeting I was told to stick around until my difficult child had dinner and that we could visit for awhile when he finished eating. When he came out of the cafeteria he told me to leave and that it was my fault he had to be at the stupid place. He refused to take the phone card I bought him - said he didn't want to talk to me anyway - and walked away.
The realization that there is no quick fix to the nightmare we've been living is really sinking in.
Hugs,
wantpeace