I first joined this forum in November after we learned my son received a citation for weed possession. I'm sorry that I have not been active since then to be supportive of others but I think I've been a little burnt out. Here's an update: we got past his court date. He received court supervision with a hefty fine and community service but was OK with it. We had a pretty decent Christmas with him (relatively speaking) and even went on a short trip to visit relatives. In the last week, we have had 3 serious incidents of binge drinking with increased depression and he has stated he has daily thoughts of suicide. We think he first tried binge drinking on our trip when we stayed with his Aunt and Uncle who have similar aged kids with full access to alcohol. Possible triggers for the depression: maybe it was gradually escalating all along; twin brother came home from college and had his girlfriend visit (Difficult Child had difficult break up recently); Difficult Child has tried to snapchat with his birth mother twice and she has not responded; something else? Last night he was out with a friend. He drank a fifth of rum and went running into the street calling for someone to stab him or run him over. By the time his friend got him home he was calmer and just wanted to sleep. Today he is "normal". He says he is going to continue to drink and do drugs no matter the consequences whenever he feels like it. He refuses all therapy and help. We are seeing the therapist he previously saw. She is helpful but there is only so much she can do from a distance. I feel powerless. Its like we are being held hostage. I feel like it is our responsibility to do something but I have no idea what. He claims to care nothing for us or the effect of his behavior on us. If anyone has any wisdom, I would appreciate your advise.